Life is a rather precious and special thing. That might sound a bit trite but with my daughter having been born only two days ago, it's a bit funny how life changes and priorities shift. Yesterday my biggest goal was bathing my daughter for the first time. Well, cleaning up her full head of hair in the attempts to comb out died mucus and blood from her birth. She cooperated rather well, crying as I had expected, but also urinating in the baby tub I had her in. I turned to look back at the rest of her tiny body (20 and a half inches long) and saw all this yellow "water." Then I realized that I had forgotten how babies pee at any drop of a hat or temperature (the water I had poured on her head was too cool).
I wanted to take a moment just to reflect. Reflect on life, mine, my family's and the interconnected web around us. Learning to be a father all over again, is different, new, and a change. I had never imagined in growing up that I would be a father to a daughter. The challenges (just different than being a father to my son) are interestingly vast as I can relate to my son since I'm male. But the gender gap between my daughter and I is interesting to note as I fear that a pink wave of Barbie will soon descend on her. It's bad enough that my son is in love with everything Disney, including the Princesses! Now in a few short years my daughter will be caught up in the rush too. I half joke about that, but what I am serious about is the father daughter bond. I did not have a sister and didn't grow up hearing my sister talk about a father/daughter dance or fears of her getting pregnant when a teenager. Being a boy, fears of pregnancy are still "out there" as a boy can experience that moment but not physically. The issue is still not part of you and I think that life will be a bit more introspective as the immensity of fatherhood--to a girl--washes over me.
I was driving back from the store yesterday and I realized that the Supreme Court might change the law and make illegal the right for women to have an abortion. And I didn't know what I felt about that. Would I want my daughter to have the right to choose even though I'm against abortion? And then thoughts sparked alive in my imagination, linking up to weave a web of life in front of me, stretching out far into the future. I realized that I needed to champion women rights to help fight for my daughter's well-being. For her to choose what she wants. I just hadn't thought of life from that perspective before when my son was born. Yet maybe these thoughts will temper me and the reflection will enable me to grow to learn more about who I am not and become more--in the hopes of being a better father for my daughter. These thoughts are what I'd like to reflect on, keep close, hold tight within me, and relish my new role as father to a beautiful daughter.